Today
Posted by Rebecca Tue, 20 May 2008 14:12:00 GMT
Today my mind is full.
It is full of hopes and dreams, worries and fears. It is full of good memories, laughter, and people-sparkles. You know what I mean by people-sparkles - those moments in every day life when you catch a glimpse of a person’s soul in the way the corner of their mouth crinkles when they smile or in the way their fingers move when they open an envelope. People-sparkles look like G-d’s love.
My mind is also full of things I wish I could forget, like how I hurt that person, or ruined this friendship. We all have regrets.
Some days my head is full like this and I can’t make heads or tails of what I’ve done, or what I’ve missed out on, or why I’ve been so ridiculously blessed beyond belief.
Today is not one of those days, and for that I’m thankful.
Today is a day of perspective - a fleeting understanding of a minute part of the grand scheme. Today it all doesn’t matter, because it’s not anything I have to control anyway. Today I stand and know that I’ve been forgiven by my Creator, and that He loves me and therein lies my value and worth as a human being.
I’m tired today. My stomach hurts and I’ve developed a new case of semi-chronic heartburn. But today I feel like I can take anything on because I know where I’ve been made to stand - on the most solid ground that exists - the one truth of the one living G-d.
