I'm about done.
Posted by Rebecca Fri, 15 Aug 2008 15:40:00 GMT
Ever felt like you were just about done? Out of energy, out of patience, out of steam?
Maybe even out of caring?
I’m there today. Yesterday was absolutely terrible. I spent a few minutes in tears in the bathroom at work. I was about ready to quit my job, even though I love the people. I didn’t love a single one of them yesterday. I went to work early, got home late, and didn’t get anything done. Because of people.
I hadn’t slept well the night before because I was waking up hourly with cramps, and pretty much all day I couldn’t get them to go away. I probably about put a hole in my stomach because I took so much advil.
My nerves are so raw. Everything tiny little thing annoys the crap out of me. I feel like I may remove the head of the next person who smacks their gum around me, or incessantly taps their pencil in class, or eases over into the turn lane without using their directional.
There were two small redeeming factors from last night that sort of salvaged the day and gave me what I needed to come into work today.
1) I got three pages of my four page paper written. Yup. That’s right. After all that yesterday, I had to write a paper. Fanfreakingtastic.
2) I got to spend a little time with Dom in my own home. No concrete floors. No unfinished walls. No wallpaper shreds all over the kitchen. It was comfortable and relaxing and exactly what I needed. He somehow managed to completely diffuse the ticking time bomb that was me, just by being himself. He’s awesome like that.
I’m hoping that this weekend will provide me with some much needed down time. Otherwise, it won’t be pretty come Monday.
