Posted by Rebecca Fri, 30 May 2008 20:06:00 GMT
So for those of you who read yesterday’s post, took it seriously, and prayed, thanks! I have already started seeing the fruit of your prayers.
I wrote an entire page of an essay today that I want to be really good - and I think it will be once I finish. It involves a very clear image of a spiritual truth and I’m excited about it.
Now I just need to keep writing.
And you? You just need to keep praying.
Posted by Rebecca Thu, 29 May 2008 13:09:00 GMT
When I first began blogging in 2004, I didn’t always know what to write about. After awhile though, it became obvious that my blog was the perfect platform for sharing my faith journey with my community. Several times a week, I would post about the wonderful ways in which G-d had revealed aspects of His character to me, or the new and amazing way He had healed some area of my broken, pathetic little life.
If the server that hosted my blog hadn’t died a year ago, you’d be able to go back and read those posts, but they are gone so I have no proof of it. You just have to trust me.
Anyway, I don’t write like that much anymore, and it bugs me.
I think what bothers me most about this is that I can’t put my finger on the reason. I don’t know why it’s not happening. I can come up with several possibilities, but nothing concrete. As a problem solver, I’m frustrated that I can’t find what needs to be fixed.
One possibility is that my life is pretty simple right now. For several years, it was full of drama - rough relationships with friends and family, a really terrible job, no money, depression, you name it.
That is no longer the case, hallelujah! I have a fantastic living situation, a rewarding relationship with Dominic, boundaries with my family (wow, this is so helpful!), a good job, and I’m bearing a little bit of spiritual fruit.
Is it merely that I am only inspired to write when my heart and soul are lying in blood-drenched shreds all over the floor? Can I only share drama with the tiny percentage of the internet that actually reads me?
What about my life now? Why can I not write about the amazing things that G-d is revealing to me in His word? Why can I not share with you all what it feels like to ACTUALLY be walking with Him daily? (It’s amazing, by the way) Is is because it is too wonderful to describe? Is it because I’m selfish and only want to write about how physically drained I am?
Is it because I’m tired? Distracted? Just plain lazy? Discouraged about my writing? Frustrated because there are a lot of things going on that I’m truly not at liberty to share? Is it because no one comments on my boring posts, so I feel like I’ve lost the audience that I used to have?
What is it?
I used to think that this blog was my ministry - after all, the only real tangible gift G-d has given me is the ability to convey what is in my heart and head in a very descriptive and honest manner to other people through writing. For awhile I did have a “large” following - between thirty and fifty readers daily. That was nice. I felt like I had something to say and the world wanted to hear it. My readers were worldwide and that was cool.
Then the server died and it took forever to get the replacement set up with a new blog so I could continue writing. Things haven’t been the same since.
I’d hate to think that I can’t write because I feel like I have no audience. That never hindered me before.
Anyway, here’s what I want to happen. I want to be compelled to write about my faith journey again. I want to be compelled to express it clearly and honestly to anyone who reads my blog regularly or comes across it somehow randomly. I want to share the miracles that take place in my life daily. I want to magnify G-d and minimize myself.
So.
For you praying people out there - get busy.
Posted by Rebecca Wed, 28 May 2008 15:28:00 GMT
These are some travel goals I’ve set for myself. I would like to accomplish them sometime in my life.
1) Visit the Holy Land
2) See the Seven Natural Wonders of the World
3) Visit the British Isles
4) Visit New Zealand.
5) Set foot on all seven continents. (I’ve got two under my belt so far)
6) Go to the Moon, Alice!
Where do you want to go?
Posted by Rebecca Tue, 27 May 2008 14:06:00 GMT
This year has flown by and is nearly half over already. I feel like I blinked and 6 months passed without my permission.
A lot has happened in those last six months, including Caroline and Jared’s beautiful wedding this past weekend. Congratulations again, you two!
I moved and had to fight lots of roaches - it is a battle Becky and I are winning although there are still a few pockets of resistance here and there. We will get them, though. They are so going down.
I started and stopped a class in the middle of the Spring - I needed some time to just concentrate on life in general for awhile, and it’s a good thing I did or I’d be in a straight jacket right now.
My plans for the rest of the year? Two classes, a new bible study just for the summer, lots of laughter and some financial planning for a trip I want to take next year. There are some other things too, but I’ll save you from having to read about them.
Today I’m just tired. The whirlwind of 2008 has tossed me about a bit, and I need some rest, which I probably won’t get. So, if you see me around and I look exhausted, well, just remember that this year, it’s par for the course because time is moving quickly and I can’t keep up with it.
Posted by Rebecca Thu, 22 May 2008 15:26:00 GMT
For those of you who know the music and life of this family.
Posted by Rebecca Tue, 20 May 2008 14:12:00 GMT
Today my mind is full.
It is full of hopes and dreams, worries and fears. It is full of good memories, laughter, and people-sparkles. You know what I mean by people-sparkles - those moments in every day life when you catch a glimpse of a person’s soul in the way the corner of their mouth crinkles when they smile or in the way their fingers move when they open an envelope. People-sparkles look like G-d’s love.
My mind is also full of things I wish I could forget, like how I hurt that person, or ruined this friendship. We all have regrets.
Some days my head is full like this and I can’t make heads or tails of what I’ve done, or what I’ve missed out on, or why I’ve been so ridiculously blessed beyond belief.
Today is not one of those days, and for that I’m thankful.
Today is a day of perspective - a fleeting understanding of a minute part of the grand scheme. Today it all doesn’t matter, because it’s not anything I have to control anyway. Today I stand and know that I’ve been forgiven by my Creator, and that He loves me and therein lies my value and worth as a human being.
I’m tired today. My stomach hurts and I’ve developed a new case of semi-chronic heartburn. But today I feel like I can take anything on because I know where I’ve been made to stand - on the most solid ground that exists - the one truth of the one living G-d.
Posted by Rebecca Thu, 15 May 2008 20:58:00 GMT
After all, I’ve already got all the roaches.
Posted by Rebecca Wed, 14 May 2008 18:30:00 GMT
‘Darth Vader’ spared jail in Jedi church attacks
Thanks for the link, Becky.
Posted by Rebecca Fri, 09 May 2008 12:55:00 GMT
Q: What is the definition of a Newtonian fluid?
A: Apple juice, made by an apple liquefying as it observes the law of gravity and lands on Sir Isaac’s head.
Posted by Rebecca Thu, 08 May 2008 16:43:00 GMT
PERRY CASTENEDA LIBRARY, 101 East 21st Street
Suspicious Activity: A UT staff member reported approximately 200 people were running around in their underwear. Upon the arrival of the police, the officers observed both men and women running around wearing only their underwear along with a large orange X painted on their bodies. The officers soon learned that the group was collecting clothing donations for local shelters. Donations appeared to be a little skimpy. Occurred on: 5-08-08, at 12:51 AM.
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