[ Posted by Rebecca
Wed, 01 Oct 2008 04:37:24 GMT ]
I am not particularly ready to discuss my recent change in circumstances, but so many people are concerned that I felt writing something here would be helpful to them.
The sun rose this morning. The world is still turning.
My heart is all over the place, and tears are never very far from the surface even though I’m being distracted by a very good friend (which is extremely helpful).
I took today off work and I will be off Wednesday as well. I did manage to make it to class today, and that was a healthy and welcome distraction, and got me out of the house for 4 hours (because I had to take the bus etc).
God is showering love on me through songs on the radio, words of truth in His book, and through close friends and people who are really just acquaintances. It is so good to not question if I am loved. There is no way I could think that I am not.
My father even acted as a father for a fleeting instant, with encouraging words that surprised and touched me. God is a changer of hearts. If he can change the heart of my father, he can change the heart of anyone.
I am comforted by the knowledge that I am walking in God’s will, regardless of how painful it is at present. It it the best place I can be. I have finally opened my hands and given this situation over to Him. He is God after all, not me.
I am sleeping when I feel sleepy, and eating when I feel hungry. I am crying when I feel like crying, and praying almost constantly.
All things considered, I’d say I’m doing pretty well, but I certainly welcome your continued prayers. Please do not forget to pray for the other party involved. This is not easy for anyone.
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[ Posted by Rebecca
Tue, 23 Sep 2008 12:45:03 GMT ]
Word Of God Speak
Mercy Me
I’m finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it’s okay
The last thing I need is to be heard
But to hear what You would say
Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You’re in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak
I’m finding myself in the midst of You
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet hear Your voice
Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You’re in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak
Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You’re in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak
I’m finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it’s okay
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[ Posted by Rebecca
Wed, 17 Sep 2008 16:44:38 GMT ]
Donate to the Capital Area Food Bank.
It’s easy, and will really help people who find themselves in a desperate situation.
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[ Posted by Rebecca
Tue, 16 Sep 2008 13:18:11 GMT ]
Two mornings now have yielded temperatures in the mid-to high-60s.
Yesterday was beautiful all day, even though it warmed up a bit in the afternoon.
Today looks like it may shape up to be quite similar.
Don’t trick and tease us, Texas. Please.
We need a break from the heat. So do the people on the Texas coast.
Please be benevolent.
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[ Posted by Rebecca
Mon, 15 Sep 2008 04:27:30 GMT ]
I’m so glad we don’t have to use all the English units here in America.
It would take up way too much space in my brain.
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[ Posted by Rebecca
Mon, 08 Sep 2008 12:46:58 GMT ]
For my whole adolescent and adult life I’ve had fairly clear skin, up until last August.
I switched from my regular Proactiv regimen (which I was on to control menstrual-related break-outs) to something cheaper, thinking that since my skin had never had any real severe problems, I could go off Proactiv, save a little money, and have no troubles.
I was wrong. Within a few days my face broke out all over. I was encouraged to stick with my new face wash because when you switch products, it generally takes time for your face to adjust. Mine never did, so I switched back to Proactiv.
It was too late, the damage was done.
I hit a particularly stressful period in my life and started having break-outs regularly. And I wasn’t breaking out with little tiny bumps, I was getting huge blisters all over my face, in places where I had never broken out before, like my cheeks and nose.
I was afraid to switch products again because that was what had initially started the problems, so I stuck it out with Proactiv, waiting for the day when it would kick in and work. That day never came.
A good friend then directed me to this site.
I read through everything, but was still afraid to try something new, so I sat on the info. for two months.
Finally, frustrated and tired of not getting anywhere with the expensive Proactiv I was using, I went back and looked over the site some more. This time I read the founder’s story and decided to take the plunge. I ordered a three-step kit and started on it as soon as it came in the mail.
Within two weeks of use, my face was clear. That was three months ago. I haven’t had a break-out since, even during those difficult weeks of the female cycle. I still have some red spots from old blisters, but they are flat and will fade with time. My skin, however, is completely smooth and beautiful again.
A few good things about the site I mentioned above:
1) You can order your products on the site and get them delivered quickly to your home, and even with the shipping charges it costs a lot less than Proactiv.
2) There are forums on the site where you can talk to other people about their experiences with the product, with other products, and about practices that have worked for them and things that haven’t. This played a critical role in my decision to use the product.
If you’ve been banging your head against the wall because you have this problem and can’t get rid of it, or if you know someone in that situation, then you should direct them to the site. It’s the best product I’ve come across. It is gentle, affordable and doesn’t stink.
It has worked wonders for me.
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[ Posted by Rebecca
Fri, 05 Sep 2008 04:12:12 GMT ]
Hope they find out some good stuff.
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[ Posted by Rebecca
Wed, 03 Sep 2008 02:33:29 GMT ]
It seems that everyone thinks a rooster only crows at dawn.
Well, I’ve been around a lot of roosters on my grandmother’s farm, and I can tell you this. A rooster begins crowing at least an hour before dawn, and continues to crow all day long until shortly after sundown.
It’s obnoxious. Ask any of my fifteen cousins.
Some recent episodes have got me thinking about roosters, particularly because of Peter’s three denials of Christ the night Christ was betrayed. Christ told Peter that he would deny the Son of Man three times before the cock crowed. And Peter lived up to that prophecy.
I’ve lately been listening to streaming Christian radio on headphones at work, mostly to drown out the insane gum smacking that I am otherwise subject to eight hours a day. Inevitably someone asks me what I listen to.
Commence an internal freak-out that calms down only when I lie.
Today as I was walking to the bus, I was listening to Kutless on my ipod and I ran into an old co-worker, who of course asked me what I was listening to.
Of course, I lied.
In my mind, I heard that dadburn rooster.
The sound of it hit me hard.
Sure, I can talk about my faith all day long in the company of other Christians, or certain friends, and my family. I can write about my faith pseudo-anonymously on the internet, where a general lack of identity protects me from the scorn of the world.
But when given 900 opportunities to have a real conversation about my faith, I cower and by doing so, deny people the pleasure of experiencing any amount of G-d’s light that can make it through my broken self.
I fail. Daily.
I began to ponder my actions, and ponder my motives for allowing those actions to persist.
In fear, I wondered if I am ashamed of my Messiah.
See, I don’t want this:
“For whoever is ashamed of Me and My words in this adulterous and sinful generation, the Son of Man will also be ashamed of him when He comes in the glory of His Father with the holy angels.” Mark 8:38, NASB
I want to please my L-rd, and I know I do not do that by concealing Him.
So then I thought, it must be all those crazy Christian extremists out there, who would rather bomb an abortion clinic than to reach out to the women who have had to face an incredibly difficult choice. The ignorant ones who think the n-word is ok. The ones who are blind enough to believe they are superior to Jews.
But that still didn’t seem correct.
Because, duh. I’m not ashamed of admitting I’m a Christian because of Christ, or because of other Christians out there who I fail to agree with on certain things.
I’m ashamed of admitting I’m a Christian because most of the time, I don’t act like one.
I judge people. I gossip. I complain about everything and everyone under the sun. I worry. I’m afraid of a lot of things that I don’t need to be afraid of. I make pleasing people a priority over pleasing G-d.
See, I don’t want to be the reason someone turns away from G-d.
But if I hide Him from them, will they turn back to Him?
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[ Posted by Rebecca
Wed, 03 Sep 2008 02:06:28 GMT ]
Contrary to popular Islamic belief, the Temple Mount is historically Jewish.
By what authority do I state this? By G-d, by Jewish historians, and by a 1925 publication of the Supreme Muslim Council.
Thanks to Phil for sending this out.
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